Film image #55
2022, Acrylic on board, 30x30cm
3 August 2022
The walk of a man burdened with stones, the burden of the stones , they make him think that he should control , have agency, power, delusion? Was this is this intended, os this the intended role of a man? Certain men yes, called men, men who mature past selfishness, men who know how to love, because they know that you love them. Is it easy for a man to mature? Is it inevitable? Or is ot possible to stagnate, or regress ? That continual stream of testosterone over the brain , unable to release, it builds up, tension , a mixture of pleasure and pain, a complex , not needing or wanting to understand, just desiring release. Cures include beating the man down, becoming sick. Self indulgence selfishness, loving oneself instead of you. Thst constant push mojo over the brain mojo push , the magicks , the spirits, flowing through the brain , entering into this reality through neurons in the brain , the place where this reality meets the spiritual realm, we are are portals , we build the kingdom or we break ot down, that first appearance in the brain unconscious, flowing , circulating , building, joining , becoming more , consuming , becomeing conscious, facing the judge, accepted or rejected, aquited or condemned by the judge, by this man carryong the burden of the stones . Without the stones there wouod be no babies, no continuity of the human species , they have to be carried, but who will carry them? The man shall carry the stones , he shall be made he shall be created to carry the burden , it shall be his pride and his shame. That constant push through the brain . Are you willing to face the man with the stones and accept him for waht he is, perverted as he is, warts and all. Do we still need men, lets just keep then around to carry the stones, they dont seem to be able to do much else these days , and oh how satisfying it is to rub it there pathetic faces, i will take my baby and raise him alone , my son, who will be trans or gay or something, something more acceptable, not so controlling and stupid and selfish and confused